Long Way Home
by Deyna Gomez on April 10, 2020
If you are feeling like the world is changing now and it is hard to keep up, you are not alone. Yesterday I stepped out to pick up some essentials we ran out of at the local market, and honestly, it felt a bit like being in a movie. Even before stepping out of my car I prepared myself with the personal protective equipment, which, I don't think it really hits me until I walk out and see other people in the same gear. Is this the new norm? Perhaps I expected myself to be used to it by now. But the truth is I am not sure I want to.
Don’t get me wrong, I am an introvert by nature, so being home isn’t that new or difficult for me. I am taking this time to do some healing and reflection. I am allowing myself to slow down and focus, to build stronger relationships and let go of ones that are holding me back. However, I really miss my weekly lunches with my sister. I miss sitting in the park with my partner and people watching. I miss packing up my laptop and sitting in a coffee shop. I miss being a part of the world. Perhaps on my own terms, but I was still a part of the world.
On my way back to the car I counted three pairs of gloves on the ground. My heart broke. In this time Mother Nature is in the process of healing, we still struggle with a simple task of placing items in a garbage bin. I consolidated one of the bags and used it to pick up the gloves off the ground, “Forgive them, Mother, they know not what they do.”
As happy as I was to be out and part of the world again, there was still a sense of imprisonment being locked up behind a mask and gloves. As I made my way home, I realized there wasn't a rush. I decided to take the long way home, opened the windows and cranked up the music, and feel the freedom and peace of the moment.
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